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Happy New Year! Now, let me confess that I’ve always dreaded (OK, kind of hated) New Year’s Eve. It’s always just seemed like a lot of hoopla and a lot of money and for all the house parties, hotel parties, dinners, and bars that I’ve spent various New Year’s Eves in, I’ve never had that great of a time. The one thing I do appreciate about New Year’s, though, is a chance to reflect on the year gone by and the year to come.
Without taking you down the recap road, I’ll share one of my biggest realizations from this year: I’ve been lying to myself and about myself. My whole life, I would tell you and myself that I hated change. Yet, the course of my life would show you a whole lot of change and anything but a miserably unhappy person. I was a gypsy in a lot of ways for a long time: I changed addresses constantly, I switched jobs somewhat frequently, and most of my friends didn’t bother learning the latest guy’s name. And I had a great time.
So, now that I’m in the 30-year house and a job that I like, married to the man of my dreams, and having the time of my life with life, maybe this whole hating change thing is becoming more accurate? Um, no. Because at the end of May, we’re going to shake up our world again in a momentous way (not that being pregnant hasn’t already started the shift).
In reflecting on not just 2013, but my life in general, I’ve come to the conclusion that I definitely do not hate change. I’m willing to shake things up, in big and small ways, all in pursuit of what I most want: fulfillment. As I’ve gotten older, with things like a mortgage and a baby-to-be, maybe that shaking up is a little less seismic. But it’s still there: the knowledge that if something isn’t serving me, isn’t growing me, I’m not afraid to change the situation to find something that does serve me and grow me.
As we enter 2014, I resolve to embrace the changes (I love ‘em, after all) and to continue to reflect upon and be honest with myself, about myself. It’s the only way I can be honest about myself with others, after all.
What’s your New Year’s Resolution?